AHHH!!

Have u ever felt that u know somethings coming and when it happens it hits you hard. Something like when u know your fish is gonna die but when it dies your like really broken up about it.. That was a metaphorically speaking.. I found out smt bout my frens that I knew was coming only when it did it kinda hit me hard.. I have no idea why, but its been kinda haunting me every since I found out that it was true... AHHH!!.. It's driving me nuts.. I even dreamt about it during my afternoon nap (yes I sleep every afternoon).. I'm happy for them of course but I never expected it... AHHHH!!! Its hard to explain the feeling.. But I was really dissapointed with both of them coz I'm quite close to them especially one of them (even asking her whether she trusts me enough to tell me things) didn't prefer telling me.. I found out from someone else before I found out from them and it was because one of my frens asked her... I MEAN COME ON!!!! I know u dun want to tell me, but I'm ur best fren and you know I support you a hundred percent eventhough we may not see eye to eye on it, but to actually keep it from me coz you were afraid of how I would react... It kinda shows how much you trust and know me.. I feel kinda insulted, but I can't really blame you coz I know everyone is entitled to their privacy... But if I were to do that to you - not telling you that something major in my life happened- wouldn't you feel like dissapointed too?? I mean we're best frens!! You've gotta trust me.... Next time, just be honest with me k?? I'll be behind u a hundred percent no matter wat.. Best Frenz For Life.. ;)